My worst nightmare...

[Silver Black]

I woke up in sweat, heartbeat racing so hard I couldn't believe it. It was actually pumping the blood in my reshaped skull I could actually hear it bouncing in my chest 

very loudly. I tried to sit but I fell on my side, surprised and shocked to realise my back couldn't bend in two. Then I saw it. 

The black spot right in front on my eyes, long , with whiskers with the atrocious sensation to have a moist cold nose at the end I wanted to dry on my clothes. 

But there was no clothes. Instead, I felt like I was in a sandwich of two fur pillows. 

It was hard to move and to stand up, which I couldn't do normally. 

I started to panick as I saw my bedroom was freaking light and there were strange new colors dancing in the air. 

The moonlight was so intense it actually hurt my eyes which was a bit blurry with all the panick. 

I heard flapping  and when I panicked and rolled on my side to look what it was, thought there was a huge bird stuck under me. I screamed but a loud screech came out of my mouth instead...well jaw. 

I tried to roll away from the '' bird '' but the huge wings were rolling on my back with me. 

I stood up in panick but I fell again since I couldn't stand up on two properly. 

I saw someone in the corner of the bedroom with different shadows and froze. 

I recognized my boyfriend, standing there, scared to the bones, not moving a muscle. 

I thought I was dreaming. 

A great nightmare. 

But it wasn't. 

My boyfriend looked horrified and I wanted to ask him what was happening but I made weird noises instead.

Then the thought hit my mind like a truck.

I p-shifted. 

that was it. It happened. 

The bird stuck on my back was in fact just my own wings acting on their own.

The nose, the fur, the moves being hard.

Oh jesus. 

I was a naerubie now and my boyfriend was looking at me like if I was a monster.

I could see some deep scratches on his face as he was crying of pain and fear.

I felt terrible....

Very terrible. 

I jumped on my four and jumped out of the bed. 

I was way lighter than I thought. 

My tail scared me as it fell down with me and landed on my legs. 

I wanted to open the door but I marked the wooden door with huge claws instead.

I could still open the door and jump out of the room to find an exit. 

I was running and moving so fast I heard my dog barking and whining in his cage and the cats ran away 

in screams of terror. 

I saw the balcony door and ran to it, opened it with a frenetic urge to cross the window and jump off the balcony.

The urge was so strong my body was moving on its own. 

I was crying internally but no tears came out. 

When I opened the door I didn't feel the cold of winter, 

only my nose felt it.

Then I jumped on the fence, almost slid. 

And pushed very hard with my back legs to sprint into the air and spread my wings open. 

I was about to fly when I went down instead. 

Then everything blacked out.

A few seconds later, I was looking at my body laying in the snow, sleeping dead. 

I was above it, crying my soul out. 

I believed I could fly but I wasn't ready to. 

And now my wolf body was going back to human again, 

sleeping in the snow...

forever...

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Just a thought that crossed my mind. 

I didn't p-shift yet like this but this is what could happen...

This is mainly why I'm scared of shifting. 

So if you have any advises I'll listen carefully. 

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[Imagine]

It's great to be cautious, especially when shifting...A LOT can go wrong, after all. But, you are already a naerubi internally, right? Meaning, you wouldn't hurt your loved ones. They're your pack.
As for flying...I doubt you would feel the need to immediately fly. Birds learn and many don't necessarily want to take to the skies right away. It takes time, and the creature, whatever it may be, understands that. Point is, you are the naerubi. You are in control.


But...in the case that these events did happen....

Tell your boyfriend ahead of time what's going on. Come up with a 'what if?' plan together and create a system that will protect the both of you. For example, you could try to keep the door locked and set aside a lure for yourself in the space opposite of the door. The lure could be a cow tail or some other dog treat/bone with a bell on it. The bell would be meant to wake your boyfriend and he can quickly and quietly exit the room leaving you to just be.

If you are to however escape and feel the urge to fly, tie string above you're balcony in a  criss-cross pattern. This is a trick sailors use in order to keep birds off the deck. Zoos adopted this method as well and have managed to keep birds in. Since you're a bit larger than most birds, use thicker wire/string.

If you can make past all your preamde "traps" and you've managed to jump off your balcony, spread your wings out and attempt to glide down. Do this by titling the front part up slightly with fully outstretched wings. Remember, don't spread out the feathers. Raise you're head slightly and keep your tail straight behind you. DON'T TRY TO FLY. Glide until you have more control.


I wish I have more advice to offer, but, I don't fly in this life nor do I have all these different things to worry about. Just think like the smart creature you are and trust yourself

[Guest]

Silver,

You are a very intelligent individual. I have no doubt you could handle any situations that would arise in a manner that is convenient for both you and your mate.

Sure your mate might panic initially but if you are playful around him after P-Shifting, he will quickly realize he is not in any danger. That it is still you.

[Silver Black]

OMG , I couldn't have better advices. 

you both, Imagine and Aion, are amazing persons. 

Thank you for caring about me and existing in my life. 

it reassured me a lot. 

But I intend to try to shift in my other room anyway.

Shifting with my boyfriend doesn't seem to work.

My wolf is too scared to hurt him by accident with the claws or fangs 

while waking up.

I am a dangerous and very instinctive animal,

I can't just wolf out and not take precautions.

I have deadly instincts.

Close to the dinosaurs to be honest.

Agressivity, dominance, hunting needs and urges to evade when feeling trapped. 

All of these . 

Plus I'm intelligent and very stubborn and when I want something I always get it.

Unfortunately, it could my cat or dog if I see em in the way.

I wouldn't want that to happen.

I love them but when I see an animal running away I can't help myself.

I have to chase it. 

It happened by accident when I was drunk.

The time I realise what i was doing, i was chasing my cat and made all the kitchen chairs falling on the way. 

I believe I was really hunting the cat.

At least catch it. 

I hope nothing more.

I also smelled my dog's ass on the way xD

like wtf.

[Taylarn]

From what you've mentioned, it sounds like a fear of shifting and scaring the ones you love, as well as a fear that you won't be able to fly, and losing control...

My idea is that maybe you should shift slowly, and around the time where you start growing wings, keep tabs on your instincts, and your progress, and test out your wings slowly, and get used to the feelings. Although birds usually can't fly very well when they're first starting out (it's a very painful experience for a bird who's never flown before to just take off and head for the skies, and it's akin to the feeling of running a marathon on little to no training) there is still that potential for flight there, so if you do catch yourself in the air you can always glide down and land safely. Just don't fly very far, or else you could exhaust yourself. Mentally, though, you shouldn't worry about not being able to fly, because if you're really shifted, your body and brain will know how to do the rest (after all, you can walk as a naerubi, so flying shouldn't be anything unusual.)

Physically, if you're worried about something going wrong and you actually not being shifted while...well, shifting I guess, you can always do a "damage" test. This is basically just designating something simple to be destroyed in a massive way when you're shifted. The point of this is to leave a mark that could never be made by a regular human-for example, you could scratch a portion of your wall, and see what marks it leaves, and whether they're wolf or human marks. If they have an effect on the physical object, then it's a sign you've shifted, and it could ease your concerns a bit, especially if you're fully shifted and feel an almost uncontrollable urge to fly.

One more thing-since you are a naerubi, you'd know what keeps you interested and happy when shifted. When shifting, you could set up interesting things around the room, so that if and when you do shift fully, you're too distracted by everything else to really go on instincts fully, and you could tire yourself out so that you pose less of a threat to anyone accidentally encountering you, or to reduce the chances of you flying away in a panic.

[Silver Black]

All these advises are REALLY good. I'll note them all down.

Thank you, you truly are a family to me. 

 

[Guest]

First- I am schocked. That was amazing, you shifted wings Silver. You did it. You p-shifted and you remember it.

Second: get more security in the room. Better locks, windows covered. As Imagine said, put some treats in the room. Bones, meat, whatever. Remove any sharp objects.

Third: tell your boyfriend to not panic and leave you in a room when that happens. That way you get more experience in this and better control. Try not to panic, when you gain more control then you could sleep with him in a room or whatever you guys are doing there xD

[Silver Black]

Just a thought that crossed my mind. 

'' I didn't p-shift yet like this but this is what could happen...

This is mainly why I'm scared of shifting. 

So if you have any advises I'll listen carefully.  '' 

For the last time I DIDNT P-SHIFT. T_T 

I wrote it right in the post. 

[Guest]

OH

Oh


Oh

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*hides away in embarrassment*

I am sorry

hides face and blushes:

[Guest]

I feel so. Stupid now. :awktanu:

[Silver Black]

Don't feel that way aha. It's nothing stupid. You just didn't see it, it can happen to anyone ^^

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