Development of my vampire self

[Luci]

Hey,

So as it says I am developing more and more into my vampire/succubus self and am discovering a few things. Like food is becoming more and more bland and my body isnt rejecting it but it has a harder time using it for energy unless there is some herbs and spices to it like garlic, and not sure what else helps.

I am having a harder time being around people as the bloodlust is at all time high, may be because of not being able to get blood or maybe it's the time of the year. But I feel like my kin self is developing with the change of the world and it's progress to a future that silver knows about, I wish it was developing towards a better one but out of the possible ones it's seems to be innevitably going to something like that because of the growing corruption in the souls of humans.

Right now I am feeding psychically to keep me stable enough and using the energy of nature to w either supplement it or cleanse it. I used to feed off of raw to rare meat, squeezing the blood from it but right now I live somewhere where my roommates are in the living room/kitchen too often. The events coming to pass are possibly going to only be localized but idk I don't see enough and it doesn't really work like that but yeah I can see the future or at least the possible ones but not enough to change it.

I believe that's all for now.

Luci

[Zanblade]

I understand that urge, sometimes nothing is good enough to replace it. And its hard to control it at times, substitutes are substitutes and well i hope you'll get used to it.

[Luci]

Thank you, and yeah it's good I have a lot of self control.

[Luci]

More info.

Vampires are able to turn down or shut off there emotions, at least my kind can. Garlic can suppress hunger for a moment and food that is very hot is the ones we can taste.

[Liudan]

My kind of vampires learn to work with their emotions, albeit they also only feed on the blood of their significant other, the rest is energy/Ka. Though depending on the lineage it is slightly different.

[Luci]

Yeah it's not exactly something under my control completely yet. Plus we aren't quite as innocent as that with only feeding on your partner, we feed off of anything and anyone and our hunger is strong.

[Luci]

What is hardest is the adjustment to the hunger when touching and well other stuff with my boyfriend as I am very aware of the blood in his body and the hunger in me

[Luci]

My roommates have started to go to school so I now have time to feed and I feel fed last weekend and God did it clear my head

[Liudan]

That's great

[Luci]

Thanks, the desperation I felt was really not good.

[Luci]

Another weird thing that happens with me is the fact that I need to have hot sauce or for it to be hot for food to feel like it's actually digesting properly

[KuroBarbox]

I don't know if this is funny yo say but I seem to have trouble tasting hot foods and usually can only taste cold foods or room temperature ...I don't know how relatable that is to other people.
Like cold pizza over hot and fresh is easier to taste. Not sure if that's a sign something is wrong with my tongue.

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