More or less absent

[Silver Black]

I'll come in from times to times. 

but here is the thing. 


For a little while I want to go away from everything surnatural, paranormal. 

I'm starting to worry that the veil broke and that entities with very bad intentions are trying to get the best out of me, Lykena and other people I know.


I,m at a point where I don't know who nor what to trust. 

everything sends demoniac signs and symbols everywhere I go. 

I'm sick of that. 

I want to be sure i'm not away from my rightful path. 

I want to be sure a demon is not trying to brainwash me into using magic to get in this world and terrorize me. 

I,m sick of experiencing attacks and impulsions and temptations that are not me.


I feel stressed, tired, nervous and constantly tempted with everything. 


i shut up Silver for a while, just to be sure i'm not dealing with an evil spirit. 


I don't know what to do nor believe anymore.


can i trust my wolf, can i trust anything i hear in my head ? is it safe from satan ? 


he's everywhere these times.

I don't feel safe....


SO i'm taking a few steps back. 


I'm tired of the sounds at night raging around me. 

I feel better now that I used sauge to neutralize my bedroom's energy but its temporary.


and trust me when the effect will fade away it'll be even worse.
 

* sigh


I hope we all get adjusted to the new energy wave coming from the veil. 


I'm exhausted in so many ways these times.

I even lost my apetite...


sorry :( 



I'll be present but i want to step away from some things. 


i'm tired..so tired...

[Guest]

from what i feel (my husband would have told me anyway) the Veil did not break or humans would be seeing dragons on the news ect. Ya taking a step back is a real good idea. I don't mean that in a bad way or anything. You did need to get cleared. It would be VERY obvious the Veil broke. Trust me..

[ZhongShi]

The veil is not breaking...not now, or anytime soon...
Beware of the enchantment of your own mind's eye...
The strength is within, rather than without...
and you are protected.

[Silver Black]

YO ALL. 

I know THE veil hasn't broken yet but the veil that blinded my magic and third eye is fucking gone. 

It's an individual experience I guess. For me the '' veil '' has broken. 

I can use my magic when I want now and I feel and hear and even see energy and entities that weren,t there before. The ground is even shaking at nights. 

And by the way, you won,t see spirits and dragons at first.

They will be present but invisible and one day they will manifest visually too.

It's kind of funny you said that since Lykena saw the real manifestation of a dragon many times now. 

Ask her lol. 

But HEY it's my opinion so yeah. 

Anyway I want out of all this shit for a good while. 

I'm exhausted at all the manifestations and energy change. It makes me aggressive and tired. 

So yeah, for me things have changed too much at the time for me to handle it properly.

I'm happy for you if you didn't experience anything yet.

i hope it never happens. 

It fucking sucks.

You want to kill yourself and swear and you are defensive with everyone and you just want to p-shift and run away. 

Yeah, and you are way more sensible to everything. 

You pretty much see shadow people, lights and fucked top things.

you hear weird violent sounds at a few meters from your face and other crazy stuff.

And    trust    me ,    

I don't want to be part of this anymore. 

Magic sucks, 

paranormal is freaky. 

I just want a normal life and get on with my dreams.

The humanity can all rot and die as if I cared.

 

I want to live my dreams and be happy .

Fuck the rest seriously. 

I don't know if anyone else here is feeling the same way.

That's why I'm taking a break.

My nerves are pretty much sensible these times and i want nothing to do with helping or participate in anything paranormal for the next month. 

to be honest I even started to ignore my wolf.

I'm starting to wonder if she wants my happiness or to destroy the shit out of me.

 

The second i let her out, she talks to me out loud, makes me look crazy, tries to break up with my fiance and do all sort of annoying shit like being defensive with people, being super aggressive with people I love and on and on. 

She made me use magic almost by force and now i'm enduring the consequences of her selfish will. 

* sigh. 

So yeah, I,m not sure if she's even good or on the good side anyway. 

She wants all stupid humans dead and want to rip their throat open.

While I want to be at my best and love everyone and give what i can to make people happy.

Do you know how hard it is to live with one or many entities that have different interests than you ? 

Oh I know you, you'll say '' my kin is me and i'm my kin so it doesnt happen ''. Well good for you.

For me its not the case.

She's my past life soul or at least she says she is. 

Then bam bad stuff keep happening and she acts like someone totally different from me.

That wolf bitch.

Do you know how it feels to have two personalities or three even ? 

or at least to live with different entities in your soul  ? 

it's quite a pain in the ass. 

that is sure. 

and i'm exhausted.

I just want to lie down in God's arms and rest comfortably while he tells me story to make me fall asleep in Heaven. 

I'm sick of all the evil around me. 

And all the corrupted people who think they are so right to play with magic and other stuff they know nothing about. ( neither do I know a ting btw ) .

Magic is fucking wrong to use.

So is luxury, murder and all these sins I want out. 

Some things God can forgive, he forgives all.

 

But other things people abuse constantly. 

And i'm sick of people making God looking like an idiot who punishes everyone for the least imperfection. 

DAMN IT. 

He's just love and acceptance and all he tries to do is saving our soul and showing us the right path to redemption and innocence of the soul.

I started to pray and devote myself again to him and strangely I feel safer and the manifestations almost stopped since that time.

and I can feel emotions again and i use incense to clean the energy in my house ( sauge ) and 

DAMN this feels good. 

I don't know what voice or people are right and wrong and who is corrupted or not and its their thing, I don't care anymore.

I just know what path I want to follow and i'm sick of not knowing what is right and wrong and being influenced by so many people thinking they know what's right for others. 

i was that person not long ago and I was not right to be .

I am no goddess, I may be Mother Wolf  ( if my wolf is not a lying demon bitch that is ) and yeah, I have abilities, special ones and I can help and guide and whatever. ( and its part of my mission on earth btw ) But hey , this all sounds too much for me.

I just want to be like everyone else and follow my own path without everyone or everything trying to corrupt or influence me in bad ways .

I want to be here, listen and give a hand where I can. 

But I will only give advices.

To be honest I'm not sure I even want to p-shift or be part of anything surnatural for a while.

It doesn't mean I won't be back in.

Btw i'm staying, i'm just taking a break.

And I hope I did not offend anyone today. 

I feel rather sassy and tired of everything .

its just too much for me and I hope you can understand that I need to rest a bit from all that.

I'll stay with you all tho , I won't leave.

I don't quit my family. 

I fight along with them to survive and be happy together. 

that's what a family does, it sticks together no matter what. 

And I'll stay with you because I love you all. 

[ZhongShi]

Dearest Silver...Welcome to being awake.
There is a place in you where you will find balance... Seek that place...listen to the inner voice of truth...you will know it when you hear it.

The visions and spirits and dragons will pass...you will eventually get used to the shadow people and sounds and as you do, they will pass...

I went through something similar over 40 years ago and I'm still here...you will be too.

[Silver Black]

I'm not afraid, I just need time away from all that .

I'm confused about what's right and wrong. 

Who's trustable and who isn't ( the entities tied to my soul ) 

Silver said sorry and she wants to convert herself to God and I'm not sure if I can trust her.

I just know somehow being a wolf /naerubie is still something i feel in my heart.

tho i'm not sure if its just by habit.

Omg I wish this confusion happens to no one else. 

it sucks.

[Silver Black]

Edit I feel a bit better. My soul knows the wolf is real tho, and so is the dragon guardian. It's the rest I doubt. I'm scared some entity tried to take over  my wolf or something. 

I,m not sure, I,ll keep you in touch. 

I won't let anything put me down. 

not without a fight.

[loumae]

I'm sorry you are going through a rough time. I can't necessarily relate to most of what you are going through and wouldn't know where to begin to help, but I hope you feel better soon. *howls for you*

[Silver Black]

Actually I wrote that a few days ago. It's getting better and better.
but somes huge changes are occuring on earth and it affects me more than you can imagine.

I'm strong, I,ll survive this. 

keep faith, I,ll fight along with yall. 

We will fight this together.

Thanks for your kind words <3

[Umbra]

keep getting better and stay stong :) soon it will affect us all positively.

[Silver Black]

It already started. I can feel it .

The energies are reverted to positives at least for me. 

I don't know, I passed the test. 

And jee I feel better than anytime before.

I can also be Silver completely without any veil interference. 

:) i'm so happy now !!!!!!!!!!   [You must be registered and logged in to see this image.] 


( I think a lot in a few days and make crazy researches all day so i progress fast ) 


if it's not an apocalypse then its a tribulation or an energy instability around earth and it's affecting us all in many ways. Not saying its religious related or anything .

It might be something else entirely. 

Who knows.

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